Tuesday, 16 October 2012

The absence of some routines, and a desk



Well, it's 10 October, and I’ve moved into my new flat. It has been incredibly dislocating. I have been trying to schedule my time at the new flat around my class schedule, which has been a bit of a problem, since I don't have a regular schedule. It has been a huge mistake, and has meant that my routines have been all over the place.

While I didn’t invest in broadband, I had a plan to use my phone as a ‘mobile hotspot’ for my laptop.  Sorted!  Or so I thought.  It turns out that my laptop is older than my phone, and doesn’t recognise my phone (‘is it a camera? Yes, it’s a camera.  You want to do what with it now? I don’t understand’).  I managed, through a convoluted process, to set both my phone and my laptop to Bluetooth and get them to talk to each other (yay!) but this meant I spent an hour trying to submit the four pages of a home insurance quote, after which my laptop informed me I had been timed out of the server and would have to try again later.  Brilliant.  Clearly, using Skype to speak to my husband wasn’t quite such an achievable plan after all.  Hence my blog entries are now being recorded on my phone to submit when I’m back at home with a good signal. 

It seems that I can't leave the house without bumping into someone I used to know. I have been extremely happy to become reacquainted with two or three people with whom I've lost contact over the years. I’ve also been glared at by someone who treated me really badly, and had an old acquaintance (who was always short of money) try and cadge a meal.  I do love this place (and its characters), and leaving the area two years ago was complex and required a lot of thought. Coming back seems to have reignited a whole lot of unresolved issues - which I don't have time to resolve.  I need to study!

It has been great running into old friends, but each time, I'm a little terrified. Do I have time to see them? My idea for the new flat was to have a purely ‘work’ space, which my husband, only half jokingly, refers to as my ‘monastic cell’. I intended to work solidly for the time I'm here, and then go home and have a weekend of gentle reading before coming back.  I haven't factored in issues like going for coffee with friends. Maybe it’s just because I haven’t settled into a good routine with work yet, and once this is in place, perhaps I’ll feel more relaxed about things.  Yet at the moment, I’m just anxious about work all the time.  My concentration isn’t up to the standard that it will be after three years, and I’m having trouble focusing without distractions (in an environment where everything is new).  I deliberately chose to move with some of our furniture, so at least I’d feel I was in familiar ground (another cunning plan), but even so the fridge is in a different place, and I haven’t got a desk or a table yet. 

Oh yes, the desk.  Yes; I had decided there would be no need to take a table with me, as I’d have a desk in the short term and could get a table at some point later.  What I didn’t think about was the difficulty the ‘man and van’ would have getting the desk out, and that I would be moving with neither.  It also turns out my ‘spare bed’ mattress is terrible, and gives me backache. So, I’ve tackled this in another cunning plan, and am using the futon mattress off my sofa bed until I can get a new mattress.  Unfortunately, this means now I also don’t have a sofa. 

Due to the absence of both any fixed writing surface or a sofa, I find I’m spending my days at the flat reading in a chair facing the window, writing on a notepad on my knee.  This was okay until I realised the house opposite wasn’t empty, but also occupied by students.  I found this out when they took a cigarette break, and hung out of the front windows smoking.  I realised that while I had been ‘staring into space’ thinking about the book, from their perspective I had in fact been staring in the direction of their rooms.  Lovely. 

Please let my second hand table arrive tomorrow as promised …

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